Closure

Dear D.H,

A year is a long time...at least to realize a few simple things that I should had realized since the begining, starting with the fact that I couldn't had fell for you. A beautiful smile was all it took, a glance of the passion for your art came next, then the eyes, the hair, the mind, the voice, the dreams... I fell in love, dreamed with you, kissed you, promissed you...but then I realized. I realized like if a bulb had lighted up in the darkest of the rooms: we belong to different worlds. You have the luxury, the women, the parties, the money, the world at your feet... Me? I'm just...well, me! Since the minute I saw you, i thought to myself "That boy will bring me some trouble!" And damn, was I right?! Stop haunting me, stop making me love you! I have a life that I'm learning to live and adapt, I have people that love me, that I could retribute with so much more of me, but I can't, I can't because the piece of my heart you took is dead and dry, only being wet by tears and haunted by nightmares. Hopefully, I'll get some closure from loving you...hopefully...

Ausência

Peço imensa desculpa aos meus leitores por esta auência prolongada, com o primeiro ano de faculdade pela frente, a época de exames e fora outros problemas pessoais, não tenho tido muito tempo nem paciência para escrever, mas espero que daqui em diante comece a vir aqui com mais frequência.

Obrigada por passarem por cá e mais uma vez desculpem a ausência

Catarina

Sia - Soon We'll Be Found

Ultimamente esta música tem-me arrepiado bastante, espero que gostem tanto como eu!

Quebra

Olhei para mim lá em baixo...pálida, a respirar o mínimo possível, a controlar todos os músculos do meu corpo para não tremer, a engolir precáriamente cada enxorrada de lágrimas que ameaçava espraiar-se no meu rosto...voltei a mim..."Não respires, não te movas, não pestanejes, não podes quebrar!" Se respirar perco os sentidos, se me mexer parto-me em bocadinhos tão pequeninos que não passarei de pó, se pestanejar afogo-me em lágrimas... É isto que ganho por te amar mais todos os dias, por me querer desprender de ti e ficar cada vez mais presa...morro por dentro quando os teus olhos me dizem para viver mais um dia, só mais um, que estás quase a chegar... Maldito sejas, maldito o dia em que decidi amar-te com toda a minha alma...

Cursed

You are my curse...

Palavras de Bolso

Beijo

Saudade

Inocência

Mar

FAMÍLIA

Música

Idiota

Irmã

AMO-TE

Something Random

Why do you have to be so far? This isn't fair...

I miss you so much, the touch of your skin, the taste of your lips...I need you here, with me! I need you, gosh I need you!

You're my home, my harbor!

I wish i had something smart to say now, something rational, something beautiful maybe but i don't!

All I want is to be with you, in your lap, in your arms, cuddled in you, burry my face on your neck, cry all my tears, feel your warm touch, your calming heart, your soft breathing, hear your understanding silence, be at home for once!

I need you here, I NEED YOU HERE!!!

Today your abscence hurts more than ever, today I need to feel like a kid in your arms, I just need you...

I miss your soft colour sand hair, I miss your grey magical eyes, your glowing smile, I miss my golden boy...

I love you so much that...

Por vezes...

Por vezes gostava de sair deste lugar maldito que tanas desilusões me trouxe,

Vaguear por aí sem ter o peso dos horários, das satisfações,

Andar comigo e só comigo, sem ter mais ninguém no pensamento como companhia...

Por vezes gostava que o que sinto com tanta clareza fosse deveras real, palpável e memorável,

Que cada toque, cada beijo, cada sorriso e olhar tivesse um lugar na minha história, na nossa história...

Por vezes gostava de não cometer os erros evitáveis que tantas vezes cometo,

Pensar em consciência antes de agir...

Por vezes, gostava que me sentisses como eu te sinto,

Que soubesses quando preciso de ti como eu sei quando precisas de mim...

Por vezes...por vezes...

Por vezes gostava de expor em palavras o que sinto,

Todos os promenores, floreados, sonhos idiotas e descabidos...

Por vezes gostava de poder desligar-me de mim mesma,

Ser outra, noutro lugar, longe daqui, num que talvez não exista neste mundo...

Por vezes, gostava de não te amar,

Que não doesse tanto, que não me desse tantas esperanças idiotas...

Por vezes, tantas vezes...

The Scar on My Star

If I were a shooting strar,

Leaving a trace of dust and flames,

Without ever looking back,

You would be my scar

As permanent as laughter,

As deeply as the sea,

As vivid as a breath

That hurts inside of me

What a strange feeling this is

Passing by the ocean sea

Somehow it feels like home

But is too far away for me to be

And you're allways with me

My strange little scar

In the body of me

Craved into my heart.

Opiniões Precisam-se!

Antes de mais, bom ano a todos e peço desculpa pela minha ausência.

Mas hoje estou aqui para promover um projecto diferente que espero que adiram e que gostem.

Por enquanto, peço-vos só que deixem as vossas opiniões, e se tudo correr bem, logo se vê o que vem asseguir.

O que se segue é uma amostra da colecção de agendas, cadernos e malas personalizadas. Como disse, é apenas uma amostra, visto que podem ser feitas em qualquer padrão, com os elementos que mais gostarem.

Disfrutem e deixem as vossas opiniões, obrigada^^

PS: não sou eu a aritsta mas mantenho um contacto próximo com ela, foi ela que me pediu para promover o seu trabalho.

Sick and Tired

I'm just so sick and tired of all of you!!!

I don't even know why the hell I give a shit...

Emptiness

In the place of a heart I have an echo...

It's fill with emptiness...

Empty...empty...empty...empty...empty...

It's a scream that's stuck on my throat but maybe I'm just to coward to shout it out loud

Or mybe not...

Maybe when I scream there's always someone there shuting my mouth...

And when I sceram in silence...Empty...empty...empty...empty...empty...

Can everyone PLEASE, leave me the hell alone? I need to cry, I need to scream my lungs out, I need to mourn the person I used to be and all of those who died with her!

It's just an echo, not a scream, an echo...

Just emptiness in it's pure way.

Aqui, Agora

Se soubesses o quanto te amo...não caibo em mim só de pensar em ti, é tão mais do que qualquer palavra possa expressar.

Estás longe, tão longe que não parece haver um mundo entre nós mas sim dois, pelo menos.

Mas aquela hora, aquele aqui, aquele agora...foi o momento em que não tive de pensar onde estarias, o que estarias a fazer, estavas lá, naquele momento em que o meu olhar se cruzou com o teu, no momento em que dois corações bateram num uníssono tão perfeito quanto a criação do universo...e contudo, partiste, e o meu aqui e o meu agora, vagueiam pelas recordações de um momento que não sei se foi real ou sonhado mas que foi mágico.

Soube a tão pouco, foi tudo tão breve, breve demais, horas que na minha memória se transformaram em breves segundos.

Mas amo-te, com todas as letras, todas as pausas e com todo o meu ser.

Um momento

E pensar que um momento era tudo o que bastava...

Bastou para saber que é impossível existir um futuro neste presente inexistente,

Bastou para que o teu olhar encontrasse o meu,

Mas não para que fosse tua.

Foi breve demais, mágico demais, duro e cru demais...

E num momento, partiste.

Muse Dictionary

1. Acromusm: (noun) shortening of Muse song and album titles used by musers (i.e. OoS, TIRO, FAWY...)
2. Amusement: (noun) Way for musers to pass the time by creating funny and piss taking captions for random muse photos.
3. Animuseary:
- The yearly celebration of the first time you ever heard Muse.
-The anniversary of when you joined the Muse message boards.
-The yearly celebration of your first Muse concert.
-The yearly celebration of an epic Muse performance or release of a concert-style Muse dvd. (i.e The RAH Animusery , and the H.A.A.R.P Animusery.) Usually to celebrate one holds parties or has a gathering with friends where they watch the dvd’s and/or listen to the songs that were played at the show.
4. Arbellionomise-to add arpeggios of the Muse variety to one's own song.
5. Arbellionomist-one with an affinity for arpeggios (especially those in Muse songs)
6. Arbellionomy-the study of arpeggios (especially those in Muse songs)
7. Assassin technique: frenetic drumming technique only to be attempted by experienced drummers as people often ends up hitting themselves in the head and in a coma.
8. Balloonatic - A person who is in the late stages of Musenitus or other Muse related diseases.
9. Banana:
- A Muslim delicacy. Originally Originating from the Origin of Symmetry.
- A main component of diet for Bellamy.
10. Bananagram: an anagram that is devoid of meaning and placed strategically for muse fans to slip upon while chasing after clues. The purpose of which is to provide the band with entertainment; usually provokes a point and laugh response.
11. Bellafling: contrary to the common thinking this is a not a sexual or enamoured related term. It is the action of flinging your guitar (usually a manson - see U.F.M for ref) and it landing on your unsuspecting band mate resulting in a few injuries.
12. Bellamism- the act of loving Matt Bellamy.
13. Bellamist- One who loves Matt Bellamy.
14. Bellamology- a study of conspiracy theories related to exo-politics research that began with Dr. Matthew Bellamy of the Institution of Museism.
15. Bellamy Complex: psychological condition where one believe themselves too short to be sexy. The first documented case was reported at the 2009 NME Awards.
16. Bellamy Syndrome: condition under which an individual falls into a trance whilst playing a guitar solo and ends up on their knees often leaning over their Manson guitar or an amp. This condition has also been referred as a Mansonic trance.
17. Bellamytosis- A disease in which one becomes infatuated with Matt Bellamy. There is no known cure.
18. Brie: cheese delicacy, especially loved by Domnic Howard and Domists.
19. Cabasamania- The love of Morgan’s cabasa.
20. Cabasamaniacs- those who love Morgan’s cabasa.
21. Catachrismic = the type of chrisgasm had when he plays the harmonica.
22. Chrisgasm: A state of arousal or total ecstasy caused by some form of exposure to Chris Wolstenholme, whether pictures, those sexy bass lines or otherwise.
23. Chrisian - Chris worshipper
24. Chrisism- the act of loving Chris.
25. Chrisis- When one cannot get enough Chris.
26. Chrisist- One who loves Chris.
27. Chrisly- normally refers to a piece of clothing or shoe that looks like it should be worn by Chris.
28. Chrismas - The celebration of Chris' birthday
29. Chrisness- a term used to express the actions caused by one’s “inner Chris”. Can also be used to describe something that relates to Chris.
30. Chrisology- The study of Chris Wolstenholme.
31. Chrisostrophic- Something that is affected greatly, whether good or bad, by influences of Chris Wolstenholme. Usually results in a major change.
32. Chrisotologist- one who specializes in treating Chris addicts.
33. Chrisotology- A branch of medical science that was specifically created to treat Chris addicts.
34. Christ- another name for the awesomeness that is Chris Wolstenholme.
35. Christening - Introducing to the world of Chris obsession.
36. Cockminster: use when referring to an unsolvable problem (this math exercise is a real cockminster)
37. Conspirmattism: The belief of conspiracy theories that Matt believes in.
38. Convert- a term used by Musers when referring to their contribution to the addition to Muse’s fan base.
39. Danism- The act of loving Dan.
40. Danist- One who loves Dan.
41. Danistan- A religious country located east of Cydonia where the Danistanians live.
42. Danistanian- a person who lives in Danistan. Danistan was created as a sort of safe place for those who worship Dan. There have been wars between the Morganians and the Danistanians for years, As the Morganians believed that only those who worshipped Morgan could live in Morgania. However, things are quite peaceful between the two religions.
43. Danness- a term used to describe the awesomeness that is Dan, can also be used to describe anything that relates to Dan.
44. Dawesome- anything awesome that relates to Dom in some way.
45. Dawesomeness: being awesome in a Dom way.
46. Delattation - the deletion of websites due to a mistake made in the HTML.
47. Dom nom nom- Dom’s deliciousness to the eye.
48. Domgasm: A state of arousal or total ecstasy caused by some form of exposure to Dominic Howard, whether pictures, those sexy drumbeats or otherwise.
49. Dominitis- A condition in which the host becomes infatuated with Dominic for no apparent reason. There is no known cure.
50. Dominization- a weekly treatment that those with Dominitis receive in order to suppress their undying love for Dominic.
51. Domish: normally refers to a piece of clothing or shoe that looks like it should be worn by Dom.
52. Domism- The act of loving Dominic Howard. Also known as Howardism.
53. Domist- One who loves Dominic Howard. See Howardist.
54. Domistrophic- Something that is affected greatly, whether good or bad, by influences of Dominic Howard. Usually results in a major change
55. Domland: It is believed that Dom goes there often, proof of that fact is in every picture or video in which Dom is looking at the ceiling, sky, or appears to not be a part of this world.
56. Domness- a term used to express the actions caused by one’s “inner Dom”. Can also be used to describe something that relates to Dom.
57. Domology- The study of Dominic Howard.
58. Domotologist- One who specializes in treating Dom addicts.
59. Domotology- A branch of medical science specifically created to treat Dom addicts.
60. Eargasm- what you experience when you listen to Muse
61. Educating- a term used referring to the “brainwashing” or the conversion of Muse haters to get them to love Muse. It is different from “converting” in a sense that the people subjected to Muse “education” have already heard of Muse and just choose not to continue listening to them.
62. Epic: (adj.) used by musers to describe an awesome muse song or performance.
63. Faff bag: Refers to a bag of moisturisers, hair gel, and other supposed "metrosexual" self-maintenance products. One such faff bag is the property of Dominic Howard. The size of a faff bag can vary from a toiletry bag to a small suitcase.
64. Fillip: to be stimulated or aroused by Muse.
65. Fillipino:
-One who exposes themselves to Muse for the purpose of being stimulated, or aroused.
-One overly obsessed with Fillip, i.e.; learning to play it, singing it, etc.
66. Forameus - to add an easily solved anagram to a song for 'teh lolz!'
67. Funnylaugh: An infectious laughter usually caused by the phrase "sit-the-f**k-down" (as made famous by Matt Bellamy).
68. Gary Wolstenhole: the result of combining the two names people have mistakenly used at least once when referring to Chris Wolstenholme in articles and other things of the sort.
69. Gimmebackmehmicness- a word used for those times when Matt steals Dom's mic.
70. Howard Syndrome: condition where an individual gets really chuffed but gets flustered and faff about when given a microphone.
71. Howardism- See Domism.
72. Howardist- One who loves Dom. Also known as a “Domist”.
73. Hulla - term used to describe something's likeness to the promotional photographs found in a booklet inside the Hullabaloo Live at Le Zenith DVD.
74. Hullabaloons: the balloons that were usually released during bliss in the origin of symmetry tour.
75. Kirkbot: cyber version of teh kirk.
76. Lookitwhat upwhereness- a term used when referring to all the pics and other moments when Dom is looking at the ceiling instead of at the camera.
77. MAA- Muse Addicts Anonymous. A class that was originally created to cure Muse addicts of their addiction, but eventually began to fuel the fire of their passion. This class no longer exists on file as its original purpose has been overlooked.
78. Mansonist: worships Hugh Manson/his guitars.
79. MASA- Matt's conspiriacy theories of NASA and his fascination with the super computer, H8.
80. Matemamus bellameus- a bug that is known to carry and spread Bellamytosis.
81. Mattack: Assault on another person by usual throwing yourself at them or on their drumkit.
82. Mattastrophic- Something that is affected greatly, whether good or bad, by influences of Matthew Bellamy. Usually results in a major change.
83. Mattastrophy- used to describe something that is affected greatly, whether good or bad, by influences of Matthew Bellamy
84. Mattery: noun used to refer to a useless skill like spelling the alphabet backwards or saying the word Floccinaucinihilipilification really fast.
85. Mattgasm- An overwhelming side effect of Bellamytosis. Includes a strong sense of elation and lust!
-A state of arousal or total ecstasy caused by some form of exposure to Matt Bellamy, whether pictures, music or otherwise.
86. Mattish: normally refers to a piece of clothing or shoe that looks like it should be worn by Matt.