All over again

Honestly...I don't know what else to do...

I'm tired, exhausted, dead...when I thought that everything was starting to get right, it comes a day and everything gets back to where it was...

Yes, I'm the dumb one, it's my fault...

I just want to sleep for years, forget who I am, who I was...

I want to stop being, to stop feeling...there is nothing that I do that isn't seen as bad thing, as a bad action, as bad!

I'm done, done with everything, done fighting, done trying to smile, done controling tears and feelings, done with me!

Everything that I do, every minute I try being happy, it's not full...I feel guilty for trying to be happy.

I feel breathless, just...lost, all over again...

If I care it's because I care but my intentions aren't pure, if I don't care, then I'm an idiot...I seriously don't understand! I'm giving the time it was asked but somehow it's my fault ot saying a thing!

I'm tired, exhausted, it's always the same thing all over again and I feel dumb, an idiot, stupid as hell...

I'm tired feeling like this, I want to disapear and come back as a new person, with no viciouse demons, with no sorrow or sadness or regret!

I just...nothing...