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I don't allow myself to think about you, but...

Today I miss you...

Mother's Day

I could start this text by saying how great and wonderfull my mother is, how she is the best and everything...
I could, but I wont, because all of that is a lie...
I didnt bought her a gift because today I'm tired of games and schemes to play with my mother, I can't be sweet and smiley when everything I want to do is to cry and sleep forever. Today I can't stand to be a hypocrit.
My father acused me of being a bad daughter...my own father...anyway, I guess people never stop surprising us...
Now I am being acused of being childish, playing victim and pouting...another surprise...
I just want to vanish, to get away from here and never look back again.
I just want to cry...
So, happy mother's day.