Feliz Natal

Desejo a todos os meus leitores um Feliz Natal, que aproveitem esta época para dar muito: muito amor, muito carinho, muitos sorrisos e muita solidariedade para com aqueles que mais necessitam. Lembrem-se de que nos tempos que correm, a Família é o mais importante, que a união faz a força e que no sapatinho esteja a promessa de que para o próximo ano seremos melhores.

Red Autumn Day

Sometimes I wonder if fate does it on purpouse , if it mocks in my face. I find it quite hillariouse though, I laugh myself until tears run down my face...and life it's so hillariouse that I find myself crying.
I went throught losses, I walked upon the limiar of death, I've been in the deepest of wells, fought against demons. I've walked a long, long path alongside with the contradictions of life and it's mocking laughter. I survived every battle I've ever fought except one. Love.
I've been blessed with many things. I fought battles with my family and realized that fighting with something that's going to be there for you is not worth it, an act of rebellion is not always the best way of winning fights. So I made peace, showed the white flag, surrended and I've been grwoing up since then. I lost people to the angel of death and permited that my mind, my heart and my soul to creat demons that I didn't even knew they existed. I fought them bravely, with a pure heart, with blood, sweat and tears. Every day was a constant fight. I put those demons to sleep, and even though they wake up sometimes, I fight them again . I loved inconditionaly without ever having anything in return besides pain and I got to the conclusion that I am better off myself. I met people along the way, gave everything that I had, opened my world and got nothing but grief and loss, but I've always looked on the bright side of that, if they got out of my path, it was not meant to be. I changed, grown up, and keep changing everyday. I got the chance to meet wonderfull people, with hearts so pure but who are also alone and I can't keep myself from asking "why is it always the good who end up alone?".
Life it's funny indeed. It gives you all the chances but it takes away the possibility of winning. And we wake up everyday, fight battles that can't be won with the foolish hope that someday, it will be our turn, it will be our day to win and to be happy! But it won't ever happen... All it's left to do is fight! And it's in that fight that we need to find our happiness! In the fact that weapons are given to us so we can become the ultimate fighter, the one who wins all the battles but not those we need to win the most! We overcome so much...But in the end, we never win what we desire the most, our heart's deepest wishes!
Looking back, I can see how much I've grown up, looking forward, I see how much there's still to learn but something will always be missing.
And we spend our days in a never ending red Autumn day, with death leaves of memories around us and the hope that a beautiful, fresh Spring will come and rescue us from ourselves.